Dear Tommy,

I’m so sad and I’m so sorry that I couldn’t save you. I’m having a hard time believing that it’s been 11 months. I’m having a hard time realizing that you’re not coming back. I’m having a hard time knowing that Grandma will be joining you soon but I’m also glad that you will be the one to welcome her. I am just so very sad these days.

I love you with all of my heart. When I’ve travelled recently, I daydream out the window of the airplane, imagining that you’re there, in the clouds right next to me. I miss you desperately. I miss your willingness to be silly. I miss your friendliness. I miss rubbing your back. I miss cleaning up your messes. I miss how much you loved giving hugs. I miss everything about you and hope you know how much of an impact you made and continue to make on my life.

Mom