The person you can no longer be

You are no longer that young mom

with two young kids in tow

That busy mom, waiting to do all of the chores

The breakfast, the dinner, the driving, the groceries

It was a never ending list of tasks

But grief and years have now taken that from you

You are no longer carefree, although your responsibilities are fewer

You no longer have kids in tow

One is gone and the other is practically an adult

There is no more laundry to do

There are no more meals to make

The days are on repeat with no reason to get up early

No where in particular to drive to

No one to pick up

No one to wake in the morning

While the chores were taxing at times

So is their absence

The immense freedom of time

Mixed with the lack of meaning of those mundane chores

Grief, loss and the passage of time have altered your life

You are now an empty nester 

But with more meaning behind the term than you would’ve ever chosen

Traumatic experiences have altered your mind

And no longer allow you to lounge in bed

You are now a 52 year old woman who feels her age

Who has lines in her face 

Who through the sorrow has lost a little of herself

You are now a woman who carries weight while walking through the world

But you are also a woman who wants to live and while you can no longer walk carefree

You can walk with love, light and purpose