The person you can no longer be
You are no longer that young mom
with two young kids in tow
That busy mom, waiting to do all of the chores
The breakfast, the dinner, the driving, the groceries
It was a never ending list of tasks
But grief and years have now taken that from you
You are no longer carefree, although your responsibilities are fewer
You no longer have kids in tow
One is gone and the other is practically an adult
There is no more laundry to do
There are no more meals to make
The days are on repeat with no reason to get up early
No where in particular to drive to
No one to pick up
No one to wake in the morning
While the chores were taxing at times
So is their absence
The immense freedom of time
Mixed with the lack of meaning of those mundane chores
Grief, loss and the passage of time have altered your life
You are now an empty nester
But with more meaning behind the term than you would’ve ever chosen
Traumatic experiences have altered your mind
And no longer allow you to lounge in bed
You are now a 52 year old woman who feels her age
Who has lines in her face
Who through the sorrow has lost a little of herself
You are now a woman who carries weight while walking through the world
But you are also a woman who wants to live and while you can no longer walk carefree
You can walk with love, light and purpose