All in Grief

Old Schoolwork

I didn’t write down much over the years, thinking that I’d remember things and also just not taking the time sadly. For this I hold regret, but am also thankful that I kept as much as I did.

Monday thoughts

I will be forever thankful that I had him as my child. It makes me cry when I think of it, but I know that there is some lesson that I need to learn through this pain and instead of teaching me while he’s with me, he is now teaching me from the other side.


Tears

Over the last few months, I find that I can quite easily talk about what happened to Tommy, to me and in effect to all of us, without breaking down in tears. When I’m by myself, I cry and tear up often, but can generally hold it together in front of others.

Not ready

I haven’t yet deleted Tommy’s profile from my Netflix account. Every time I turn it on, I’m sad to see his name there, but I’m not ready for it not to be there yet.