Life after Tommy

Nov 12

Nov 12 17 Months | Reinventing Life

It’s 4:30am and there’s a light dusting of snow on the ground outside. I doubt it will stick but it’s nice to look out and see it. After so much brown and grey this fall, white is a pleasant surprise. Tommy has been gone for 17 months today.

Jun 28

Jun 28 I woke up crying this morning

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Grief, Journal

This morning I woke up crying. It’s been months since this has happened. Tommy had come to me in a dream which was very realistic.

Jan 25

Jan 25 There are names for what binds us

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Grief, Journal

There are names for what binds us, mother and son, single mom, youngest son, grieving mom, lost son.

Nov 8
Nov 8 The confusion of grief

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Grief, Journal

The mail is addressed to him. It’s from the school that he applied to and wanted to start in the fall. I’ve let them know and tried to unsubscribe from their communication, but everything seems lost in translation.

Sep 21
Sep 21 On the day my world crashed

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Journal, Grief

On the day my world crashed the birds started singing early

Sep 16
Sep 16 Things I've found helpful

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Journal

A few things that I’ve found have been helpful…

Sep 13
Sep 13 I remember

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Journal

I remember those airsoft guns and your love for them.

Sep 12
Sep 12 3 Months

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Journal

Today Tommy has been gone for 3 months.

Sep 2
Sep 2 What I want you to know

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Journal

I think constantly of all of the people, some I know, some I don’t, who are in fear for someone around them who suffers from addiction. I know you. I know that fear.

Aug 28
Aug 28 For those grieving

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Journal

A blessing for everyone experiencing grief…. May you hold tight to the warmth of that last hug

Aug 23
Aug 23 Where I live now

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Journal

I live in a small town now. You’ve visited t his town with me 3 times and for that I’ll be forever grateful. I thought you’d be here with me now, but things don’t always go as planned.

Aug 20
Aug 20 Social Media Landmines

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Journal

August 10th was the day that I saw the first post about one of Tommy’s friends moving in to their dorm, to begin their new life in college. Today is the day I am realizing that social media…

Aug 15
Aug 15 Love and beauty and sadness and loss

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Journal

Love and beauty, sadness and loss. These are the emotions of life, love and grief. Everything is present at every moment. Life is full of beauty.

Aug 13
Aug 13 Chica and a little backstory...

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Journal

Aug 10
Aug 10 What you don't know...

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Journal

What you don’t know is that I will never be the same person I was 2 months ago. This grief is all encompassing. It comes in waves and I have no control over when it hits me.

Aug 8
Aug 8 Who was the person you used to be?

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Journal

I used to be more carefree, a mom of 2 lively, loving boys. I wasn’t a worrier, but in the last weeks, I’ve found myself worrying about possible tragedies that probably won’t happen.

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