Four years ago today started out as a normal day.
So glad that you found my corner on the internet. My life has and is continuing to change at an alarming rate. I’ve decided to document it here. Hope you’ll stick around.
In less than two weeks, Tommy will have been gone for four years. Yesterday I started feeling the heaviness set in.
Although I feel like I’ve been in anticipatory grief for a couple of years, actually losing both of my parents has been jarring. It’s a strange progression of time
Today a friend sent me a link to an online article on the Sunset Magazine site where she saw my name listed under one of the photos used in the article. It was fun to see the image and my name under it. It feels like a lifetime ago that I spent time at that house.
In two days, Tommy will have been gone for 1.5 years. The constant reoccurring statement that runs through my head is ‘I can’t believe it.’
It’s 4:30am and there’s a light dusting of snow on the ground outside. I doubt it will stick but it’s nice to look out and see it. After so much brown and grey this fall, white is a pleasant surprise. Tommy has been gone for 17 months today.
It’s been a few weeks since I’ve come to this space. I’ve felt pretty empty lately and just haven’t had much that feels important enough to say to put much down ‘on paper’.
Dear Tommy,
It’s been nine months and I’m literally putting out there ‘please send me pictures and stories’ so that I can remember my baby.